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The more you love God, the more you realize that those parts of self
that are still alive are alive because of how much you treasure them.
And you have continued to treasure them because you have not yet been
willing to let go of them, and have not yet made an effort equal to the
task of putting them out of your life. However, when you come to the
point where your love for God compels you to put to death what you have
been clinging to so tenaciously, you then realize the immense cost to
your self-life of denying and dying to that which you have wrongfully
and foolishly held dear.